December 15, 2010
I have a problem with goodbyes. It’s not that I cannot say goodbye or that I fear parting; it’s more about how I need to say goodbye (or goodnight) to anyone I care about – I need to part in a positive way. I follow a ritual when I part with someone. Any negativity can break it and I feel like I almost have to restart my goodbye.
Subconsciously, I need this ritual to ensure that if something ever was to happen to either of us, then we would have parted on loving terms. I’m not sure when this started, but this can actually affect the tone of parting – changing a nice time into one that is regretful.