i understand

i understand who you really are
your true nature lies bare for
everyone to see and categorize you

selfish. user. manipulator. bitch
your needy nature knows no
bounds. has love ever touched you?

yet i know there is more to this
your fear guides your life
insecurity your best friend. forever

when will you grow? an eternity
has passed and you stuck
still locked in a dance with yourself

different partners same song

knowing

standing in the corner watching you smile
and laugh with the ease of a child but somehow
still practiced. oblivious to your pain. my face
in darkness, shadowed from the light by curtains
of cobwebs spun from threads of remorse

your laughter pierces my ears, shrill with
happiness that is rehearsed and unnatural
my eyes burned with your vision, hopelessly
parading your wares. your vulgar attempt for
acceptance in stark contrast to your beauty

desperation in knowing the carnal but not
knowing love. always grasping for what’s
not there, looking down the wrong road,
choosing the wrong door, opening the wrong
book. desperation for not knowing yourself